

Like a small, locked safe lying at the bottom of the ocean." As with all of Murakami's characters, however, these flashes of self-reflection draw us into a relationship only to remind us that we can never know them. And it may well end that way now that she's dead and gone. I didn't truly understand her-or at least some crucial part of her.

Instead, he can't stop thinking of the man's hands on his wife's naked body, and like a good method actor, the performance brings his own pain and confusion to the surface: "Here's what hurts the most.

Kafuku is a successful actor, and he puts on a convincing show of getting to know his rival, hoping to find a weakness he can exploit. In "Drive My Car," Kafuku befriends, or pretends to befriend, a man he believes was sleeping with his wife just before she died. The stories of Men Without Women describe characters in ontological crises whose sense of identity or meaning come from relationships with women, or from the absence of those women. Like an unsolvable case, there's almost always something missing, incomplete, ephemeral about his work that compels us, like many of his characters, to know more. It would be too simple, though, to attribute this only to his masterful writing. He is one of the few contemporary writers who inspire pilgrimages (to the site of the jazz bar he once owned in Shibuya, Tokyo, to suspected locations of his stories) and superfans ("Readers wait for his work the way past generations lined up at record stores for new albums by the Beatles or Bob Dylan," wrote Patti Smith in the New York Times). When I saw him walk by, confident and loose in his runner's body, wearing a suit and fire-engine red sneakers, I wanted to chase after him. I experienced this firsthand at my first real job at a New York literary agency in 2005, when rumblings across the secretarial desks spread the news like an earthquake: Murakami was coming to the office to meet with his agent. A perpetual Nobel Prize contender, the beloved 68-year-old author's books are equally brilliant and bingeworthy, international bestsellers that turn pages while garnering prestigious awards. There's something about Haruki Murakami that's both grabbing and distancing.
